READ: “Faced with a woman’s story, we’re overtaken with the swift taxonomic impulse an amateur astronomer feels on spotting Sirius: “There it is!” he says, and looks to the next star. It’s a pleasant activity because it organises and confirms, but it produces the fantasy that a lazy reading – not even a reading, but a looking – is adequate, sufficient, complete, correct.” | “If writing is like motherhood, is motherhood like writing? A child is not a draft. You cannot delete and start again. But there are some rhythms the two tasks share. Both are arts of attention.” | “With his close-cropped silver hair, gnomish goatee and general air of placid competence, he could have been an actuary or an I.T. manager — that is, until he opened his mouth.” Profile of beautiful Alan. | My slightly-neglected Hollinghurst tribute Twitter is in the New Yorker! | A poem: The Miscarriage. | The pre-2007 psychological thrillers of Nicci French are uniformly brilliant! | My shelf of Purely Pleasurable Perfect Rereads!

LOOK: Why haven’t I shared this favourite parenting blog before? Frida Be Mighty. | Made Honey & Co’s lamb, pine nut and pepper pilaf this week. And will make Meera Sodha’s mum’s chicken this weekend. | The flower room in my country house. (Not really mine!) | A Hackney flat. (There is nothing wrong with your house.) | “However, she couldn’t afford to store it and it was destroyed.” | “The image made me think maybe I could do it—maybe I could take my child everywhere like my parents did. Maybe I could go to a party in New York, and set her down on a bed if she gets sleepy, and later, pick her up and carry her home.”

THINK: I love iconic Australian Nick Kyrgios!!! | “Everything, really everything, has been codified in terms of male needs.” | The Cut and its philosophies of “[n]uance, empathy, and a reverence for women’s inner lives.” (Certainty is the enemy.) | “One day, while she was picking their children up from daycare, he burned a handful of her possessions: her Nasty Women shirt, her Hillary Clinton pins.” The liberal men we love. | Two very intense, very good podcast episodes: Five WomenWhy now?



READ: I have forgotten how to read. | “She tries “even though I’m married” and “I know it’s wrong” and “my wife” with no luck.” | Elena Ferrante: “I’m tired of fiction, I no longer see a reason to go hunting for anecdotes.” | “I hated my father more than my siblings hated him because, as a writer, I was sensitive to the fact that he’d ruined all my stories.” | “People get trapped in time,” she says when I call her a few days later. “They judge you on your history and bring that baggage with them.” | “Writing depends on authority, the belief that what we say matters. But I’d weigh every paragraph of that necessarily crappy early draft against my children’s needs, and the paragraphs mattered little. | “He knew that to groom girls you must erase mothers.” | “Are you willing to go to war and write about it?” | “I have had to fight these feelings—simultaneously being too much, not enough, misunderstood, not seen—all of my life and now, it seemed, the messages were coming not just from society or pop culture, but from inside my own house, my own body, my core, the life I am so proud to be growing and full of.” / Angela Garbes’ book: Like a Mother: a feminist journey through the science and culture of pregnancy. | Asymmetry sounds good. | I loved Knausgaard’s Spring.

LOOK: This podcast interview with Zadie Smith makes me feel better and more righteous about some of my girls’ stereotypically feminine preferences. | Sorry, is this too obvious? But you should definitely watch the Crown. | Edith Zimmerman’s first year sober. | “Keep some parts of your life, memory and culture off line.” | How to preserve your family memories. | How to break up with your phone. | Virginia Woolf’s Monk’s House photograph album. | David Tanis’ spiced lamb meatballs with yogurt and herbs. / Creamy potato gratin with smoked and fresh salmon. / (You can probably tell I recently signed up to the very good NYT Cooking newsletter.) | Basically. | KKW Weekkly. | #28daysofoatmeal!

THINK: “Following the Fort Lauderdale rally, after more media interviews, Kasky invited everyone over for a slumber party…” Beautiful brave inspiring teens. | “I know that many men and even women are afraid and angry when women do speak, because in this barbaric society, when women speak truly they speak subversively – they can’t help it: if you’re underneath, if you’re kept down, you break out, you subvert. We are volcanoes. When we women offer our experience as our truth, as human truth, all the maps change. There are new mountains.” | “Feminism is a vision of active freedom, of fulfilled desires, or it is nothing.” | “But by and large I had been alone. So. Very. Alone. Publicly Alone—abandoned most of all by the key figure in the crisis, who actually knew me well and intimately.” | “Harassment is always a sexual demand, but it also carries a more sinister and pathetic injunction: ‘You will think about me.’” | “… each time, I hesitated, and a handful of hesitations that take only a second added up to years of failing to make a decision.” | By “making choices and, more important, imagining other, better choices, will give us the best chance possible of coming out of the darkness better than we were when we went in.”



READ: “The power you feel in drag is available to you 24/7.” | Fate. | Helen Garner reading True Stories. | Alan Bennett’s diary. | What does your husband think of your novel? | His own pictures weren’t hung in the house. | Katja Blichfeld gets what she wants. | “I fell in love with the virtues of reading before I understood what I was teaching myself to learn, which was: how to be wanted and how to be hated, for the same reasons.

LOOK: A beginner’s guide to backing up all of your photos. | “But, if we’re being honest, these days that future feels like optimism.” | The Daily episode on Tonya Harding. | How can we oppose Trump without being like Trump? | Making Obama podcast. | Layers podcast. |
The Bride (Lawrence Alloway)’, Sylvia Sleigh, 1949. / Mutual muses. | Maggi Hambling smoking in an orchard. | “Packing a single suitcase, she moved into a studio apartment in Greenwich Village…” | “all my life I sculpted motherhood.” | Yum though. | Irish stew. | Beans. | Samin Nosrat’s garlic bread. | Beautiful flat. | Revisit the spaces you’ve resigned yourself to.

THINK: “You can probably take it as a rule of thumb from now on that if people don’t think you’re weird, you’re living badly.” | Things that children say that mean “I’m anxious.” | “tense but secure.” | “Because children grow up, we think a child’s purpose is to grow up. But a child’s purpose is to be a child. Nature doesn’t disdain what only lives for a day. It pours the whole of itself into each moment…” | Work wife. (Chief Feelings Officer). | “It seemed to me that too many of the women’s culture people had merely switched from trying to please men to trying to please other women.” | “I kept quiet for a while, and then typed something like, “Aww guys, no, the Internet is great.” I meant it, though the sentiment now feels as distant as preschool.” |  Should I have a baby? | Serena’s birth story. | “Now, unwillingly pregnant at age 37, I had no idea if I was capable of either option: another baby, or ridding myself of a pregnancy. Each option felt equally terrifying.” | Twenty parenting books you should actually read. / “Our mistake […] isn’t one of employing the wrong techniques, but of thinking in terms of techniques at all – in imagining that anything as complex as a relationship between humans could be reduced to a set of consciously manipulable variables.”

ME TOO: We harpies want more. | “The animal can’t relax until it knows the presence of authority of another, and we are all animals.” | “I started the Media Men List.” | “…then she’s out like yesterday’s trash, and then what does she have to take care of herself? These poor girls have no real money.” / Podcast deepdive: how Ellen Pompeo got paid. | Maybe men will be scared for a while. | “…women are more likely to cry when they get angry, as if their bodies are forcibly returning them to the appearance of the emotion — sadness — with which they are most commonly associated.”



READ: I read this and thought “brilliant and true Art,” immediately saved for READ.LOOK.THINK. I only found out later about the think piece explosion: “Cat Person.” | The Vanity Fair Diaries by Tina Brown (a preview). | My Tina Brown-fest led me to finally read the BEST BOOK OF ALL TIME: her Princess Diana bio. | “Fortunately, you suffer neither from impotence nor alcoholism. That is in your favor.” | Raising a teenage daughter* (the annotations are special). | Is there a way of being selfish without hurting anyone? |  “Sure, I’m attuned to my children and thoughtful with my friends; I keep a cozy house, listen to my husband, and am reasonably kind to my parents. In everyday deed and thought, I’m a decent-enough human. But I’m something else as well, something vaguely resembling a, well, monster.” | You must read Meaghan O’Connell’s furiously ambivalent and super dry memoir of pregnancy, birth and the early months of motherhood when it comes out early next year (pre-order UK | US). I wonder if she will get h8 for being so honest? But it is a service to women to be so open, and the writing is so dark and so good.

LOOK: Where should we begin? Esther Perel’s podcast series featuring therapy with real couples. | The fascist haircut. | Native Australian pot plants. |  Instant Pot starter guide (including minestrone soup). | Bay leaf toffees. | Zero waste vegetable stock. | Immunity soup (white pepper broth). | Ottolentils. | Beetroot and ginger curry. | “… tofu that’s sliced and marinated with liquid amino or tamari, then cooked in coconut oil so it gets feathery and crisp on the outside and custardy on the inside, then Calabrian chilli oil on top…” | Too embarrassed to write the name of this parenting podcast, but the episodes I have listened to are good. | Australian Birth Stories podcast. | How to be a modern parent. | Queer Bible. | FREE PERIODS. | HELP REFUGEES.

THINK: The end of the social era can’t come soon enough. | “Does this one pain matter, in a world of pain? Whose pain is this, anyway? And how can I bear to witness it alone?” |  “What is never properly understood by those who do not experience it is how deep the rage over inequality goes once it is made conscious, how far-reaching it can be and yes, how unforgiving.” | “What freedoms might one have to surrender in order for others to be free?” | “That means that when they fall, we feel for them, even as we recoil from them, because their power has allowed them to be made known to us, admired by us.” | “We can’t go back in time and have the story of Hillary Clinton written by people who have not been accused of pressing their erections into the shoulders of young women who worked for them.” |  “When she returned to work after her first maternity leave, one of her colleagues reported her to the serjeant-at-arms for taking the baby through the division lobby under her coat. She had to explain to the official that, in fact, ‘I was still fat from being pregnant.‘”